why

its 5 o'clock in the morning. and i'm waiting for your good night text. which is fucking bullshit
and i can't help myself but smoking some cigarette and drink some redbull.
why am i being so soft lately. why i'm not protecting my heart.
did i forget the selftervention thing. what the hell man
are u fucking high all the week? yes i am
because its fucking help me from being clueless and do the stupid thing
i did lot of stupid thing this week. fuck me

my heart is fragile and no one could handle it except me.
just don't fucking touch it if u don't mean to take care of it.
i'm such a freak person, too desperate for love, too annoyed, too stupid
not sure if i should keep myself alive or not. fuck you